[] ♥, Wednesday, March 5, 2014
I am so tiring. Tired of compromising, once my sibling unhappy, they will always use their car to threaten on me, purpose is to warn me to be smart and nt to argue or quarrel with them. I had tried before,after quarrel with eldest sis.she asked me not to take her car to work.the next day I wake up at 6am and I use my way to take public transport to my office.i do makes her guilty. Meanwhile, I cried during I was in the bus, I feel so upset. Not because she do not want to let me take her ride but is I feel so heartache of she were using her asset to threat me and trying to ask me shut up and compromise her rules blindly.
I am so tiring of taking bus to the office at 6am early morning but work at 9am. That's just wasting of my time. I understand that buying might cost me a heavy cost can also said might spend up almost half of my salary. But I really need a car badly. I unable to resist the life without a car. I just feel I'm such a useless person and need ppl to pick me everyday.
The most harmful reason, I just don't want to trouble my babe that much and rely on him that much. If I own a car, he no nid come and fetch me everytime until he neglected his gym session. I just don't wan him to be suffer. I just scare he will leave me dues to these reason,I did not plan to put pressure to him. I so afraid but no one understanding.
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