I feel really thanks to my best friend Denise. She is my best friend and I like to talk to her. We spend our time working in ss chai. And now she wan intro me part time. I so excited!! And I wish I can earn this side income. So that, i can save money to open shop before 30years old. Hope this dream can come near to me 😍
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9:53 AM
Hi, it's me!
Simple felt stressful till I unable to fall asleep. My friend Kay who were my previous course mate. She's seems like kinda successful in her career path. I felt even stressful that why I couldn't be like her. We are in the same course, same class of honor, I'm such a failure!! Please give me some luck.
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11:43 AM
Frankly, I feel I being dump by everybody who closed to me in these world.
First, the eldest sister. All the debts I owe to her, I have already settle. She didn't update her record and accuse falsely to me said I didn't pay her and try to cheat her money.
Secondly, third sister. My boyfriend told me that her boyfriend hang out together with the melissa. I ask her not to ask her bf about that. Ended up she push the blame on me said i purposely destroy both of her relationship.
The most heartache thing is both of them planned a trip to Penang and yet they did not plan to ask me along. Parent are going together and they dump me alone in the shopping mall. Yes! Is alone..
Third, my boyfriend. Last week he hang out with Melissa without telling me. I pissed at him after I realized this. I ask him he denied and push all the blame to others. I decided not to meet him up during the whole week. Well.. I forgive him about this. Friday I asked him whether come find me. He said im dinner, so answer is no. I told him I was unhappy. He didn't even wan to come over to console me. What a good boyfriend right? Fine. Friday din come, sat wan go meeting. Come find me afterward. I was hanging out with my friend to release my unhappiness but did he know? I guess he don't know why suddenly I wan go shopping.
Hello, I'm not obligated to wait for you. U rather to spend your time with your friend. You don't even want spend your time with your girlfriend. Does it make sense?not everyone will wait until you free only meet. Seriously I tiring of waiting. I rather don't meet up. Not because of what, simply because I don't want to waste my time for the one who are not worth to be wait.
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6:11 AM
Today, i went to the curve with him for a while for the runner kit collection. During the traffic jam period,we have our conversation and I started to realised something which is "he do not need me for his every journey".
The conversation was start from he asking whether wanna join the run at penang for next year. I replied him I want and ask him proceed to the registration. His respond was like "aiya,you don't join la,". Frankly,I felt extremely unhappy.
I understand he cares me but he nv ever find a way to reduce my unhappiness.
I'm just suspectiously what kind of ppl am I actually couple with? Previously I was thought he would be my future husband.but now, I need to reconsider of this ridiculous thinking.😔
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10:05 AM
I am so tiring. Tired of compromising, once my sibling unhappy, they will always use their car to threaten on me, purpose is to warn me to be smart and nt to argue or quarrel with them. I had tried before,after quarrel with eldest sis.she asked me not to take her car to work.the next day I wake up at 6am and I use my way to take public transport to my office.i do makes her guilty. Meanwhile, I cried during I was in the bus, I feel so upset. Not because she do not want to let me take her ride but is I feel so heartache of she were using her asset to threat me and trying to ask me shut up and compromise her rules blindly.
I am so tiring of taking bus to the office at 6am early morning but work at 9am. That's just wasting of my time. I understand that buying might cost me a heavy cost can also said might spend up almost half of my salary. But I really need a car badly. I unable to resist the life without a car. I just feel I'm such a useless person and need ppl to pick me everyday.
The most harmful reason, I just don't want to trouble my babe that much and rely on him that much. If I own a car, he no nid come and fetch me everytime until he neglected his gym session. I just don't wan him to be suffer. I just scare he will leave me dues to these reason,I did not plan to put pressure to him. I so afraid but no one understanding.
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2:30 AM
Looks fierce but he's a very caring guy who care my feeling,my thought so much.sometimes his action or what he told me was really hurt me.i have no idea why I unable to pissed at him.is that what we called fallen in love?fell in love to a person will not easily angry toward him.even what he did was really hurt you.at the end of the day,u will still forgive him.yes!!this is my bf! >.^
He asked me to promised him for not to love blindly.frankly,I felt extremely unhappy,it's really hurt me.but what he said was truth.i can't just live with my bf and neglect others thg or ppl.babe,I'll all listen to you.
After he told me bout this,he's like able to sense my thought.console me with his way.this is one of the point I like u that much.a person who keep low profile but actually he's the one that caring you more.
I love you babe.*\(^o^)/* hugs
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4:29 PM
My babe is just so handsome.how wish I can everyday stick to him.😍 I wish but I can't. 😥 can't let him feel that I'm sticky person,else sooner he will hate me and leave me.
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